29 March 2015
Dear Phyllis,
Oh my goodness the Lord is good! Last week I wrote, “Today I am totally void of the joy of the Lord”. I honestly didn't know why. I had had a terrible squall with Pammy the day before but, in that, I was right and she was wrong. I felt perfectly justified in my position. But then Monday morning things got considerably worse. She had gotten over my explosion on Saturday. But Monday morning I wanted her to understand that there were two plans – Plan A and Plan B. Plan A was to obey the Bible. And plan B was to independently do her own thing and serve Jesus any way she wanted. I said, “With Plan B you don't need a Bible because you write your own rules as you go along.” Of course I was right but what that did to Pammy was lethal. She went up stairs and locked herself in her own room. When I saw the devastating effect my tirade had on her I backed off and apologized. No soap. Nothing I did could bring her out of her seclusion.
Tuesday morning the Lord sent by a dear brother who I asked to pay for me. I had come to the place where I was willing to consider that I may be partially responsible for the rupture. After Pascal prayed for me, the Lord began to open my eyes. I saw what I should have known from the beginning. The problem was over-reaction. Pammy was wrong in what she did on Saturday, but that was relatively minor compared to the serious sin I did with my over-reaction.
I searched my mind for an illustration of this in the NT. But then the Lord showed me the classic in the OT. After killing Able, Cain protested that anyone who saw him would kill him. The Lord said that He would put a mark on Cain and if anyone killed him they would get it seven fold. But then after that, Lamech killed a man and said if someone got it seven times for Cain it would be seventy times for Lamech (Gen. 4:23,24). This is the Biblical illustration for a push turning to a shove. Someone taps us on the shoulder, and we respond with a full arm swing. Someone steals a chicken but we shoot the thief dead.
When the Lord showed me the serious damage I had done, that produced some very deep repentance. I did everything I could to apologize to Pammy to break the ice but nothing helped. But then the Lord heard prayer. Two Christian men came who wanted to work with Pammy in the church. Of necessity she had to talk to them. I joined in the conversation, and pretty soon the pronoun turned to “We” again. We went shopping and I was tremendously relieved that the Lord had put the cart back on the rails. We are closer now than ever. I told Pammy, “Let's forget about Plan A and Plan B. Let's try Plan C (Christ)”. Plan C is for Pammy to do her best to be a scriptural wife and for me to be forgiving for failure and be more loving.
The first year I was the director of the language school, Bob Warric and I were making a language lab. I made the booths and Bob was doing the denki (electronics). Suddenly there was a terrible squall. I asked Bob what went wrong. He said there are two components in an audio system, filters and amplifiers. He said somehow a part that was supposed to be a filter was amplifying. That is a very important spiritual lesson. There are problems in the body of Christ that need filters and amplifiers. Forgiveness needs to filter out sins and love needs to amplify encouragement. In the situation we had Saturday revenge amplified the problem ten times. Small wonder Pammy shut herself in the room for two days.
Today was my first day as pastor of the church in our house. Several months ago Pammy led a sister, Nok, and her daughter, Pin, to the Lord. Both were doing very well. But two months ago the devil attacked Pin by using the grandmother to keep Pin from coming to church. When Nok showed up at church this morning without her daughter again I was mad. I explained to Nok that this was a black and white attack that needed to be confronted. I told Nok that she must take an adamant stand and refuse to allow anyone to keep Pin from coming to church. Nok must be a warrior. This will not be easy as she is bucking her mother and grandfather. I told her if we win the battle for Pin we will gain the soul of her mother and grandfather. But if we loose Pin we might loose Nok also.
In the book of Numbers the only ones that were counted were the ones who were “able to go forth to war” (Num. 1:20,22,24,26...). In the church the only ones that count are the ones who are able to go forth to war – the rest are just hangers-on. We cannot be defensive. We must be aggressively offensive. When Jesus said that the gates of hell would not prevail against His church, for 30 years I had that backwards. I thought that the church was behind the wall and the attacks of the devil would not prevail aganst the gates of the church. Then the Lord showed me that I had it wrong. It is the devil who is on the defensive and the church is attacking his gates. When David took on Goliath, he didn't wait for the giant to come to him, he ran towards the giant (1Sam. 17:48).
At the beginning of the 2nd WW, when MacArthur arrived in Australia, he found the country paralyzed with a defensive mentality. The Australians had conceded the northern half to the continent and hoped to challenge the Japanese at Alice Springs. MacArthur said the only way to fight the Japanese was by attacking them. No one had even considered that. He sent in the Australian “diggers” to stop the Japanese advance in the Owen Stanley ranges. It was a bloody fight but the Aussies won and that was the turning point of the war. From that moment on the Japanese never gained another foot.
I told Pammy and Nok that from now on we are going on the offensive and start having Bible studies in that house, and this is the last day when Pin will not be in church. No doubt the mother and grandfather will oppose that but I told Pammy if they won't back off, Nok and Pin can come and live with us. This is not the Thai way of handling problems but compromise or capitulation is not an option.
Jesus won in my heart and He must win here too;
bill