28 February
Dear Phyllis,.
Last week I was greatly struck by the simple expression in Col. 1:20, “having made peace through the Blood of His Cross...”. My mind went back to the moment when that Blood was shed and I came up with a surprising meditation.
It struck me very forcefully that that was the worst moment in human history. That was the greatest disaster that had happened on this planet since God said “Let there be light”. The night before had been an inexpressible disaster. It started out at the Last Supper. Jesus said, “With desire have I desired (with great desire) to eat this Passover with you” (Lk. 22:15). But that special occasion started out with the badly when somebody had forgotten to make provision for the foot washing. And Jesus Himself had to stoop to attend to that detail. That is like having a Birthday party for the king and the king has to serve tables. Then after three years of disciplining, the main topic of discussion was an argument over who was going to the top dog (Lk. 22:24). How discouraging! Then in the Garden, at the time of His greatest need Jesus asks His top three men to stand with Him in prayer only to find them sleeping. It would take pages to describe in detail all the things that went wrong that night.
But the scene at the Cross effected me deeply this past week. I stood there with Mary and John and tried to enter into their emotion with them. There is nothing, NOTHING, NOTHING more unutterable horrifying and sickening than to stand there and watch that Blood trickle down that Cross. I cannot describe the emotion; there simple are no words in any human language to express what it was like to stand there and watch Jesus die. The closest adverb I can come up with is NUMB It was past emotion. It wasn't sorrow, grief, anger, frustration, helplessness. The only word I can think of is numb. All emotion has been burned out and you just stand there numb. How would you feel to stand there and watch your husband or son die in agony with his blood trickling down a cross?
In the simplest possible terms the Emaus disciples spoke for all when they said, “We had trusted it had been He which should have redeemed Israel” (Lk. 24:21).
Religion was at an all time low. The most disgusting, worthless, men in the country had taken over as the highest level of priesthood. The chief priest was awful. Hypocrisy was rampant. There had been one burning and shinning light three years before when John was making waves. But he got killed. A foreign government was occupying Israel. Injustice was on every hand. And then the greatest prophet Israel had ever seen appeared. What hope! John had promised the Messiah was going to clean house. He said to the top religious leaders, “Who warned you to flee from the wrath to come?”: that the ax was laid at the root of the trees and the bad stuff was going in the fire (Mt. 3:7,10). Indeed Jesus was a mighty prophet in deed and word. He had a message the likes of which had never been preached. He had authority to cast out devils, heal every manner of sickness and raise the dead. Time and again evil men had tried to kill Him but He was above all. Then the most unimaginable thing happened. The bad guys had Him captured and killed. The bad guys won and the greatest hope of Israel was murdered. This was infinitely worse than if Obama got elected for a third term. The death of Jesus was worse than just a mighty prophet getting killed. The truth is that God sent His Son into the world, and He got killed. Incontestably this was the greatness disaster that had ever happened on this planet.
We know the end of the story today but that day, amazingly, no one believed Jesus was going to come back from the dead. None of the disciples believed it. Even when Mary told them that He was alive they thought she was mad. The women didn't believe He was coming back. They went that morning to anoint a corps. He had told them repeatedly but the only ones that heard that message were the priests and Pharisees who asked Pilate to seal the grave so no one could steal the body (Mt. 27:62-64). For those who were following Jesus nothing could have been darker.
But God took the worst moment in human history to make it the greatest moment since God breathed the breath of life into that clay body and Adam opened his eyes in the Garden. This was the greatest jail break of all time. It was by the Blood of that Cross that Jesus tore away the bars of hell and opened the gate to heaven for all humanity. It was by the Blood of His Cross that Jesus undid the devil and paid the price for all our sin (Col. 2:13, 14; 1Jn. 2:2).
We know all this today. In personal work, in leading souls to Christ, the first thing we tell them is how Jesus died for their sins and His Blood cleanses them. In spite of the joy to know that Jesus had come back from the dead and was alive, it is highly doubtful that the disciples had any idea of the magnitude of what had happened at that Cross that first night when Jesus appeared in that locked room and ate fish with them (Lk. 24:36-43). And it is highly doubtful that the apostles had much understanding of the work of Calvary two weeks after Pentecost, even after the Holy Spirit came to show them the things of Jesus. I'm sure Paul knew nothing of this when he got unhorsed on the Damascus road and Ananiaus came to open his eyes (Act 9:10-18). It is questionable how much he knew even after he returned from his three years in Arabia (Gal. 1:17,18). Who knows how long it took before the fabric of the New Testament theology was fully woven together and the Apostles grasped what had happened that day on Golgotha. It would have taken many years before Peter could have written his epistle and told us about the sprinkling of the Blood (1 Pet. 1:2). Certainly he could not have done that at Pentecost.
What I am trying to say is two things. First, it is astounding that God took the greatest disaster in human history to make it to be the greatest moment in creation. It was by that catastrophe that He opened heaven for all of us. And He can take the greatest disaster in your life and make it into your greatest moment. He did that for me. Secondly, even after Jesus had accomplished all He came to do with His Cross and Blood, it was a long time before the Apostles had much awareness and understanding of the magnitude of that transaction. They didn't know the thousandth part of it. And neither do we.
bill